In Case You Didn't Know

God, how I wish I could have just one more day. One more day to make sure he KNOWS how much I love him. How much I NEED him. <cue ugly cry on the drive to work this morning>

I can't count the times
I almost said what's on my mind
But I didn't
Just the other day
I wrote down all the things I'd say
But I couldn't
I just couldn't
Baby I know that you've been wondering
so here goes nothing

IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW
BABY I'M CRAZY BOUT YOU
AND I WOULD BE LYING IF I SAID
THAT I COULD LIVE THIS LIFE WITHOUT YOU
EVEN THOUGH I <DIDN'T> TELL YOU ALL THE TIME
YOU HAD MY HEART A LONG LONG TIME AGO
IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G21h08qrbss


I have life decisions that need to be made...in particular, a potential job change, a pour-over will, deciding custody of our children if/when something should happen to me and investing the blood money. (Yes, I think of it as blood money). And there is NO ONE here to help me through these decisions. No one to tell me I'm crazy...to offer a different perspective....to reassure me that everything will be ok. No one to tell me that they'll support me in whatever decision I make. No one to plan a future with. It's just me....standing at the end of a limb wondering if I should cling to it or take the leap.

In case you didn't know....I'm feeling a bit lost and abandoned these days.